Recipe: My Simple Chocolate Cookies Recipe

Hey lovelies,

We are about halfway through the Islamic month of Ramadan, which is the holiest period on the Islamic calendar.I love Ramadhan and the feeling of closeness it brings. Closeness to Allah, closeness to the family and closeness to the people around us Muslims and Non- Muslims included.I'm a little bit sad as of how fast this month goes by but at the same time i'm quite excited as Eid-ul-fitri is just around the corner. That being said... i am excited to share with you guys my recipe that i adapted from Tanya Burr's website.

So here is my take on My Chocolate Cookies:

Ingredients bellow are to make around 25 rather medium size cookies. So,you will need..

200g butter (room temperature)
200g caster sugar 
1 large egg
275g self-raising flour
75g cocoa powder
a little dash of milk 
a large bar of milk chocolate (Fruit&Nut types)
a large bar of white chocolate ( i didn't use any)


Methods:

1. Heat your oven around 180C. If you use mini oven, 170C should be enough.
2. Mix butter and sugar with a mixer until they are smooth.
3. Put in your egg into the mixture and mix well.
4. Stir the dry ingredients (Green colour) together and pour into the wet ingredients (Red colour).
5. Use your hand to mix both of the mixture together. Add in a little milk if the mixture is too dry.
6. Break up your chocolate bar (Purple colour) and mix the together in the mixture.
7. Make a small ball out of the mixture and lay them on a parchment paper.
8. Pop in the oven (mini oven please use the lowest rack) strictly for 10 minutes and not more!Let them cool on a cookie rack.

There you have it! The texture is amazing! It is almost like eating a cookie and a brownie at the same time. Crunchy on the outside and soft inside. You got the best of both world, i would say! If you love dark chocolate, definitely go out of your way to add more dark chocolate bar into the mixture. And if you like sweets, i would recommend to add more on the sugar part (50g-100g more). But this recipe is perfect for my taste as those chocolate bars are already as sweet as they can be :)

Lots of love,
Juitanis

Aidan Nuh: My Bittersweet BFJourney!

Hey lovelies,

Salam Jumaat and Happy Friyay!!!

Aidan Nuh is almost ONE year young!!! 3 more weeks to go!!

So here is Aidan's almost first year breastfeeding report! I don't really want to write about this.. but i think, for memory sake..i need..or i should jot it down somewhere, right?


And now the hardest part begin! My breastfeeding journey! I know that not every mommy had it that simple! And i am one of them -_-  Aidan was and still latches effortlessly but due to his small mouth at that time, i suffered a whole lot!! I screamed and bite my lips so hard  every time he wanted to latch. There was countless nights that i couldn't sleep as he wanted to latch all night long! I cried so much inside! My parents kept saying it was because i didn't produce enough milk whatnot whatnot..but i choose to bear with it as long as i could.

Things didn't get any better when he was diagnosed with jaundice on his 6th days. His reading was so high and the doctor asked to admit him for the UV light therapy, Since it was a breastfeeding friendly hospital, i can room in with him. He was not happy the whole time we were there. I started to use my breast pump for the first time at the hospital so that he can bottle-feed while receiving the treatment. Oh boy, i was sooo stress tahap dah nk meroyan gitu! Stress because of his reading kept going up and it double up when i could not pumped enough milk for him! And obviously lead me to do something stupid that i could not forgive myself , like forever!! I DILUTED my breast milk with a little bit of MINERAL WATER! Ya Allah!! Please forgive me!! I was wrong! I just could not bare to see him crying! I did it ONCE and just a few drop of water but i seriously could not forgive myself for that :( Alhamdulillah, Aidan was OK! But still.. it was something that i regret doing :( [Psst, I didn't tell anyone about this either]

Things just getting harder as his jaundice continued for 2 months of his life. Doctor had ruled out all the harmful cause as they diagnose it as  BREASTFEEDING JAUNDICE..I thought i can breath for a second but out of nowhere i was diagnosed to have Hand Foot Mouth Disease during Aidan's first month! I cant direct feed Aidan as usual as i'm afraid he will get it as well. So,my breastpump and i became best of friend for a week-ish :( I tried my best to pump every 2 hours so that Aidan's could get enough but unfortunately the infamous block duct come and get me! Oh my...what a harsh start for my breastfeeding journey! I still didn't reach to the point where Aidan's puke blood all over me and we rushed to emergency department! And it turned out he was fine but my (.)(.) were NOT :( haih!!

Things turn out a little bit better after my confinement period. Even though i'm not an oversupply mommy, I'm not a low supply either. I'm happy enough with my 'cukup-makan' supply. I started working after my 2nd months and my pumping routine was and still 3 times daily. Once in the car on the way to work [8-830], once after lunch [1245-1315], and once in the car on my way back from work [1730-1800]. I did skipped lunch pumping session once in awhile, but i will try to make up for it by pumping longer for my next session. So far this routine works for me! Try to find your own routine which fits you most!

I had set my goal but i'm not quite sure if i ever going to make it. Alhamdulillah! I've almost reach the first half of my goal! In Sya Allah, i'll work harder for the second half!! Thank you so much to my ultimate supporter, Mr Hubby who help me to push it through! Thank you for waking up early every morning just to wash and sterilize all the bottles.Thank you for putting up with all my craving [mind you, my craving during breastfeeding are much more worst than pregnancy period..hahah]. Thank you for everything..even though your nagging hurt my eardrum so much..i still love you! :)

To all mommies out there, I am 100% sure that we are trying our best for our kids no matter how judgmental everyone surround us would be! Keep strong!! You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have!


Lots of Love,

Juitanis

Randomness: Transcending scarcity, envy, and spendy, because, money matters!

Hey lovlies,

Nowadays with the rising of our cost of living in Malaysia, we should have more awareness on how we can spend and generate more income. I came across one article today by Ellen Powers, founder of Money Matters and i find it interesting enough to share her tips on how to spend wisely. 

By Ellen Powers, founder of Money Matters

Here are 10 tips I want to share with you on how you might transcend scarcity, envy, and spendy too:

1. Ask yourself, “really?!” every time you open your wallet for wants vs. needs. Can
   the money you are reaching for do more good in your life elsewhere if you
   protected it?
2. Don’t live beyond your means. Learn to love living well below your means. It’s
   cooler. No one really cares if your kitchen tile is a custom imported hand cut
   stone from Italy.
3. Ignore the flashy spending others do. Create a financial goals timeline even on the
   back of a cocktail napkin for starters. If envy strikes, review your goals.
4. Log in to your retirement savings account and look at what’s in there, look at how
   much is going in from each paycheck, look at where it’s going and how those
   investments are doing, ask yourself if they are balanced and are serving you
   well or if they’re costing you and keeping you up at night. Don’t look at it
   every day. Just often enough.
5. Ask yourself can I be saving more and in more places? I actually save over 25% of
   my gross income annually. You may need to save more or less. Start with what
   you can afford and then up it every year. And save at work if you can, and
   beyond work if you can.
6. Keep a long-term perspective. Don’t give up too soon. And know that it’s never too
   soon or too late to start. I’ve seen my regular, consistent contributions build
   up over time and compound. Compounding is a magical thing, but the magic takes
   time, patience, and consistency.
7. Think about how you can protect your savings, your assets, and your income. That
   means insure yourself adequately. Lots of ways to do that.
8. Ask for help. Really ask and seek out help. 
9. Remember, no one will ever care about your money as much as you do. Make at least as much time for your own financial planning checkups, as you do your vacation planning.
10. Be well. It just costs less.

Because, your money matters!


Lots of Love,

Juitanis

Randomness: Landon Austin- Armor - Official Music Video!!

Obsession of the week! :))

Landon Austin - Armor

I’m not bullet proof when it comes to you

Don’t know what to say when you made me the enemy

After the war is won

There’s always the next one

I’m not bullet proof when it comes to you

Maybe I’ll crash into you

Maybe we would open up these wounds

We’re only alive if we bruise

So I lay down this armor

I will surrender tonight

Before we both lose this fight

Take my defenses

All my defenses

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor

I do what it takes to make this right

But we got to stop before the regret

After the war is won

There’s always the next one

I’ll do what it takes to make this right

Maybe I’ll crash into you

Maybe we would open up these wounds

We’re only alive if we bruise

So I lay down this armor

I will surrender tonight

Before we both lose this fight

Take my defenses

All my defenses

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor for you

I’ll be you escape

I’ll be your safe place

I’ll be your shelter

Your shelter yeah

I’ll be you escape

I’ll be your safe place

I’ll be your shelter

Your shelter yeah

Maybe I’ll crash into you

Maybe we would open up these wounds

We’re only alive if we bruise

So I lay down this armor

I will surrender tonight

Before we both lose this fight

Take my defenses

All my defenses

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor

I lay down this armor for you

I lay down this armor for you

- See more at: http://www.limitlesslyrics.com/artistfolder/l/landon_austin/landonaustin_armor.html#sthash.OppekAGJ.dpuf

Lots of love,

Juitanis

First Pregnancy: First Trimester and Second Trimester Updates

Hi.. I'm Juitanis, and im a lazy blogger... (*Audience* Hi, Juitanis!) sob..sob..

Its been awhile!! I've been MIA from this blogging world for no reason at all...its just that i have been kinda lazy to write..and that's it.. :)

Life has been treating me well lately..I'm so thankful and grateful  to Allah SWT for everything that He blessed me with - for the past so many beautiful years! (omg, tak sangka that ill be in my three-zero in two years time..gaya2 makcik dahh niiii!) No matter what..life must go on kann..and i cant wait for our exciting and adventurous future with our little peanut (LP) !! And oh..oh.oh.. yessss we are expecting and no, its not twin! (in case if anybody is wondering)

Actually I didn't know that i was pregnant up until our delayed honeymoon trip last October 2013 (our wedding was on 16/08/13) I kinda -- have a feeling that i was prego before that trip.. but it has been proved negative in my UPT test - during my pre-employment medical check up (end of September 2013). The scariest part was --  i did go through the chest x-tray stuff without knowing that i'm already carrying my LP!! After a lot of research regarding the x-tray effect on the fetal... i decided not to stress out about it for too long...InsyaAllah everything will turn out the way it should.

I'm 31 ish weeks pregnant today....and i feel......HUGE and unattractive (macam la sebelum ni attractive benau!!haha!) i just couldn't see myself in the mirror! But i kept telling myself that my LP is growing happily in my belly! what else matter, right?! i have already gained a whooping 10kgs, okiess!!

and i still have more or less 8 ish weeks to go..I hope my weight gain will not exceed the recommended amount!! May Allah SWT be with us at every step and i pray that i can remain strong till the very end.. Ameen!

First Trimester

But of course I will be lying if i say that i love everything about being prego! The first trimester (up to 15 weeks) of the pregnancy had taken its toll on my body.. i felt very tired the whole time.. All i want to do is just to sleep and do nothing...Aside from that, i also did regret for not learning how to burp!! Siape tak reti burp, cecepat belajar burp please!!. I felt all gassy and bloated for the entire day as well...and it got WORST in the evening!! i would end up vomiting gas+water. (TMI, i know!) 

There are certain foods that will make it worst  such as oranges, orange juice, cabbage, banana and probably - most of the fruits..hahah! Craving wise, Ive been craving watermelon and nasi lemak bungkus for the first few weeks, thou! 

Second Trimester

I could say that this trimester is a bit more comfortable experience for me compared to the first trimester.. i still felt gassy and bloated now and then but i gained a whole lot of energy this trimester..Alhamdulillah i have no other pregnancy symptoms that could effect my everyday life ;) But i do acquired one habit throughout my pregnancy. I have become VERY lazy..like extremely lazy..like super duper lazyyyy!!! Thank you sooooo soooo much to Mr. Hubs for doing all those things that he is not supposed to do ;)) He is now officially called himself all kind of 'tukang' already!! Ilysm hubby bear.. Haha!

I felt my LP's first kick at 16 weeks! But my baby bump is still not showing that much at that rate..but it kept growing rapidly thou!! At 25 weeks, people cant really notice my baby bump if i wear oversize shirt or dress..but still.. LP is measuring one week early woiii and keep growing like nobody business!    LP definitely will not be a tini tiny baby! Erkk!

My food craving for this second trimester is cendol !!! ive been trying cendol at different places every week..and the best one yet is from gerai near Masjid Seberang Jaya!! My cendol craving is not over yet..Ill be hunting down cendol again this weekend!! ( sebab mkn cendol kah my LP jadi begitu sihat? hahaha)..

Ill be sharing more on the third trimester experience in my next next posts, perhaps :)

My baby bump at 30 weeks ...

Nak tengok my LP progress? Lets take a quick peek inside my belly.. Hahaha!

I wonder who will LP looks like?? (Please dont judge.. I was a big fat baby.. I know! *flip hijab*Pfft)

       L: mini hubby.     R: mini me ;)

          Proud mummy n daddy -to-be

Lots of love,

Juitanis

Randomness: Pray for MH370

Hey lovelies,

Our country has come to a great shock with the sudden disappearing of Malaysian Airlines flight MH370. As we enter into day 4, the plane is still nowhere to be found. 

I used to ride the airplane during my study year, thus this news really hit me hard as it can possibly be me or anyone close to me. I find it insensitive towards the victims's family when people wrote stupid comments or conspiracy ideas regarding this matter. Please..please keep those comments to yourselves!! They suffer enough by not knowing where their loves one are right at this moment :(

I recently found out that the co-pilot is my junior in MRSM Taiping. Even though i didn't recognize him before, it really struck me...  I really do hope that we will continue to offer our prayers for the safety of the passengers and cabin crews of this missing plane. May Allah SWT bless them and their family.

Lots of love,
Juitanis

Randomness: I'm freaking out!!!!

hi lovelies,

arini rasa berdebar debar sangat..ogosh!! macam2 bermain kat otak!!

ya Allah..permudahkan lah semuanya..

Aameenn

lots of love,
Juitanis

Tag: 25 Random Facts About Me (Part 1)

hello lovelies,

i saw this tag going around recently...so, i decided to jump on the bandwagon and try to come up with 25 most interesting random facts about me..haha.. i just thought it would be fun to spice up my blog a little..not that anybody care, right?  ;p

so...im gonna jump right in..

1. I'm a second child from six siblings (5 girls & 1 boy)
2. I was born in KL on 22 February...and i alway thought 22 February is a cool date to be born ")
3. Most of my family member either call me cha or nisa
4. When i was five, i begged my parent to sent me to HILTOP Kindergarden, JB (one of the most expensive kindergarden at that time). I dont even remembered how i knew about that specific kindergarden.My parent had to sent my sister, Yana, who is one year apart from me to a different/cheaper kindergarden. kesian yana...lols... I'm sorry and thank you abah for patiently raising such a high maintainence child like me. What was i thinking back then?
5. I used to hate being tall because i always had to stand at the back of the line every freaking time!! I remembered how bad i want to be a prefect at school just to stand in front of the line...so childish, i know!
6. But now, i have what they called "Tall syndrome". I feel inferior to any girl/woman i meet who is taller than me. Is that wierd? it is, right? =_='
7. I won a first place in a speech competion MRSM Se-Malaysia during my high school year!!
8. I won a third place in a tennis competition and managed to represent Kulim,Kedah in 2001. Unfortunately, kalah teruk gile babas during the first game...hahaha...bertapalah Kulim xde player lain ;)
9. Most of my friends will agree with me on this. I always want to clean my house whenever someone come over. I dont know why? and it become more cronic now as even when im skyping with someone (as it felt like someone is in my house), i have the urge to clean. #cray
10. My classmates in MRSM PDRM will know this..haha...i used to had a HUGE crush on Alex Yoong.. i even made a private notebook dedicated only for him..The notebook was full with newspaper cut, pictures and all that jazz! i stopped this obsession completely right after he got married. I was devastated as my first love was taken away! #dramatic much?
11. I ALWAYS, i mean ALWAYS obsess with my weight...who doesnt? haha...It not that im overweight or underweight. Its more like mental thingy..my obsession with my weight started since when i was 19 years old..but, as i said..i only obsess with my weight on the scale.but really...i didnt really do anything about it..i eat like a cow ;)
12. I love FOOD!! always have and always will!! If i can eat all the food in the world.. i would!!
13. I tend to say that im not a picky eater. But reality is, i'm a picky eater! i hate spicy, salty and bitter food/drink.. im not a fan of spices at all! i hate petai, curry, kurmak or whatever they called it, masak lemak cili api and all that jazz....
14. I have a major sweet tooth problem!! I love everything with sugar in it...and thats why i love baking more than cooking.
15. After all nonsence about food, another fact is that i have been obsessing over myfitnesspall apps since January 2013. So, healthy and clean eating ftw!!! 
16. I love shopping by myself...but i hate to eat alone ;(
17. I can NOT read map. Ask me to read map and i shoot you!
18. I have the shorthest attention span ever!! i cant sit through the whole movie ( most movies) without falling asleep. 
19. I always have cats in my parent house since i was little.. but honestly, im scared of them. The closest that i have ever been was patting thier head. thats it!
20. I hate horror/ thriller genre! i had to stop watching vampire diaries and pretty little liars just because i was too scared to watch them alone..ouh..i miss damon and elena! im gonna try to watch vampire diaries again this weekend!
21. I am obsess with flats/ ballerina shoes... i just cant get enuf of them!
22. I like trying skincare products more than make-up! Who needs makeup when you have a clear skin right? hahaha..#cliche
23. I love the idea of dining at the sushi restaurant.....but actuallly, i dont really a major fan of sushi..i like unagi thou!
24. I hate programming more than anything!! I keep on bitching about programming throughout my studies...but i keep getting programming task during my thesis every freaking time(bachelor and master thesis)??  karma is a bitch!
25. i'll be coming home in two months time!! i cant believe ill be leaving Germany for good this time!! ull be missed!!

it suppose to be 50 random facts about me..but i cut it to 25.....ill continue another 25 when i feel like it ok.. 

i tag +Yanie Sabri ,  +cy.aurelia and all of you lovelies to do this tag!! hahahah...

have a lovely monday!! pic was taken during my weekend outing..single lady style! hahaha :)

Lots of love,

Juitanis

Randomness: just a quicky post

hey hooo...
just want to say hi to everyone that came by to read my blog!!

Live is a lil hectic right now ..im busy with my thesis and whatnot..n i dont really want to talk about it...

the weather...hurm..its getting pretty cold right now with most of the leaves kept falling to the ground.. its nonetheless a very pretty scenery i would say...tp kesian la makcik2 yg kne sapu tuu..

hope u guys have a nice day and happy fall 2012!!

see you in the next post...


mfg,
juitanis

muke sebelum g keje

Randomness: cutest video ever :p

Randomness: Freeze-Flashmob Frankfurt 1.10.2011

My first ever experience in joining Freeze - Flashmob in Frankfurt!! wauwee!!

Basically Freeze-Flashmob is an event planned by certain group of people.

They will choose one venue in a middle of the busy street and freeze for certain amount of time.

It happened on 1 October 2011 at 4 pm in the middle of Frankfurt shopping street (Hauptwache)

At first,I just planned to watch all those people freeze for 5 minutes....but then, when people start to freeze...i was caught in the middle.. it was so wierd if i move around...the situation force me to freeze :p

But it was quite fun even for a few minutes :) and i was even more excited when they uploaded the video on Youtube... You can see me 'freezing' in the video i linked below...(skip foward to 2:33min)

Enjoice!!

Yours truly,

Juitanis

Gym Class Heroes - Back Home (Cover by Tiffany Alvord & Luke Conard)

Current obsession :p

yours truly,

Juitanis :p

Rambling...

Hari2 blog walking..but blog sendiri di abaikan..terbaiklah!

anyhoooo, mcm pejam celik pejam celik dah nk dekat 2011 kan...i didnt even realize how fast time flew by.thesis xsiap2 pon lagi!! grrr.....

Yesterday was awesome!! i know,everyone yg gi boxing day asyik bragging how cheap they got this handbag la, this shoes la and whatnot..But Idayu and i pon xnak kalah babe! Even dekat Konstanz,Germany je, berplastik2 ktorg borong!! macam rase nak buat haul video youtube gitu..but rs macam over! hahaha...nantila baru nak upload pics2 those babies yg dah di borong itu ;))

Today i feel like going out again...wearing those makeup palette yg baru beli smlm ;)) but tgk la dlo...snow xcair2 pon lagi... Mercun2 br nak dijual harini..kene gi beli cepat..takut abis..LOL!!

ok,peeps!! tchüssie!!

King Of Anything - Sara Bareilles - (Lyrics)

in love with this song ;)

22 February 2010 ;)))

Finally..i remember that i have a blog to write :)

ive just finished my exams last week..exams ended at 1030am and my bus to Ravensburg(Yanie's palce) leaving at 1200pm. rushing huh? haha...i just cant stand even for one more sec to live in Konstanz or to be exact >>>my room ... ive been cramming in my room since the exams started... one freaking whole month!!!!! can you imagine that??

Anyway....a lot of things are going on around me recently...full of drama(not mine), excitement, heart breaking and of course happy - happy things as well...i forgot to tell that i have passed my electronic circuit exam!!! Alhamdulillah....i am extremely happy that i cant stop smiling even after a few days!!! Electronic circuit paper is extremely hard...plus all in German!!! this kind of paper always make me regret for choosing electrical engineering at the first place ;( ive failed this exam 2 times in a row...and if i fail one more time..im 'dead'!!! Thanks to ALLAH s.w.t, ive managed this time around ;) im sooo happy...

Last Saturday i went to Stuttgart to meet Cintaku .. yani, suhana and ayu were there as well!! the craving for KFC ended in Stuttgart as we managed to get our hand on those crunchy chicken ;)) Actually, there are few KFC in Germany serves halal chicken as their supplier is from Wiesenhof. We've been given a List of HALAL KFC in Germany and Stuttgart is one of them...Alhamdulillah...there's no need for us to wait until Summer to eat KFC in Malaysia..hihi

Then we overnight at Hajar's (without those boys,of course)... Slumber party time!!!!! i cant tell you the details ;) Thanks to Yani,Hajar,Ayu and Suhana for the lovely night!! im 24 already ..sad!

KFC entrance

From left: Apis,Yanie, Ayue,Suhana,me, Cintaku

1700pm 21 February 1020

1200 am 22 February 2010

2000pm 22 February 2010

JRice - Paralysed

currently crazy listening to this song over and over again!!!

Room hunting --> headache!!!

Ive been studying here in Konstanz,Germany for over 3 years now. Apart from 6 months my internship in Zürich, ive been living in the same apartment, same room but different housemate in Konstanz throughout the years. I know, some student didnt like to live in the same house for a long time...Maybe they want a change of air or more likely a change of surrounding..i dont know.. but for me, i like it here...even the room is a little bit small for the price i paid, it is pretty comfortable..Unfortunately, i was force to move out , the end of August. My extension contract was rejected..how sad is that!! I plan to move out early June, because i will busy with my exams in June and July..and of course August is my Malaysia Summer Holiday!! i could not sacrifice that!! Auf jeden Fall, i have to move out this June!!!!

i hate wasting my time searching for apartment..it was and will never be easy to find a decent room with affordable price here in Konstanz ;( Actually ive already got an offer for a really big room...25m²,10mins bicycle ride to my University,near Kaufland, near City Center... but there are 3 Problems :

1. There will be 4 People living in that house, and there will be 1 Chinese guy ;(
2. The House owner has a dog...even though the dog will never be anything near our house, he will be running around the garden where the entrance door is ;( i hate dogs!!
3. The rent is 300€ + 10€ internet...mahal x?...

Anyway, i will have another house appointment this coming Saturday for a cheaper house,14m² with a store room inside the room..how cool is that ;)) ..which is around 250€ ..But im not sure weather im gonna get this house or not...optimistic babe!!



Scholar dah masuk!! im making a list how to spent my scholar this time ;)) hahaha...But still, i still have to save some for my Greece trip!! Havent i told you yet that im going to Greece this Pfingsten holiday?!!! yeay!!!!

Suddenly i miss my brother,Azryl...sob..sob :(

Azryl and his Mac ..kecik2 dah main mac kan...isk..isk..bdk2 zaman skunk ;))

Exam mode.....

Quick Post :

My sem 6 challenge officially starts tomorrow....until 19 Feb 10...
i wish the exam period will be over sooner...pfft... sangat xlarat nk study dah!!!!

anyway, i want to wish all the best for ur coming exams to all my beloved friends .... chaiyo2!!!

If we strive to be the best Insyaallah success will be there...

tchuss....

O Allah..Please Forgive me!!!!!

O Allah, O Karim,
Please have mercy on me,

O Allah, O Karim,
Please forgive me for the sins I committed in the past
And those I will commit in the future.

O Allah,
Have mercy on all the Muslimeen,
And guide them.
Guide me O Allah,
And guide my parents,
My siblings, my cousins,
My aunts and uncles,
My nephews and nieces and so forth.

O Allah,
I ask You to strengthen my iman and those around me.
I ask You to soften my heart
And to soften the hearts of the believers.

O Allah,
Forgive me for my shortcomings, for only You are perfect.

O Allah,
Please forgive me if I ever got too wrapped in a matter
That I didn’t have time to utter Your name.

O Allah,
Please forgive me for all the salat I missed
Because of ignorance or laziness,
Please forgive me for all the fasts I didn’t make up,
Thinking it was “alright, since I fasted most of the days anyway”.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For the pound I never dropped into the metal cup for the homeless man begging on the street.

O Allah,
Please spark the love of Islam in my heart and in the hearts of every single Muslim
Until it gets implanted in their children and their children’s children and so on.

O Allah,
I ask that You help me for I am weak
And will only grow stronger by Your strength,
So Allah please strengthen me
To fight Shaytaan and his whispers.
And if I ever fell into his trap
And followed my desirer,
Then sincerely forgive me,
For that displays not only my weakness,
But Your greatness as well.

O Allah,
Please lighten the punishment in the grave
For those before us and those after us.
Please Allah, lighten the punishment
And please shed light into every Muslim’s grave.

O Allah,
If I ever was too afraid
To stand up for Your deen
Because of what others would think
Then forgive me, for I was a fool for doing so.

O Allah,
Please protect me and each Muslim,
And protect especially the orphans and the widows.

O Allah,
Please strengthen the faith
Of the destitute Muslims around the world,
So they have hope to live.

O Allah,
If I ever forgot to do dua for even one suffering Muslim,
Then forgive me for then it is, as I haven’t done dua for the entire ummah.

O Allah,
Please be the light of my eyes, ears and heart.

O Allah,
Please be the light on the sides of me
And the light behind me
And the light in front of me.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For all the foul words I spoke
Either out of ignorance or
Because I was trying to be “cool”.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
If I never stopped to think about You,
Due to “other important things”

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For not having enough time
Or creating time for reading the Quran.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For listening to music
And watching movies and t.v.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For all the yelling I’ve done
And the arguments I’ve been in.
For the only time
The voice should be raised
Is for Your praises!

O Allah,
Please forgive me
For my disrespect towards my family,
Elders, siblings and so on.

O Allah,
Please forgive me for any backbiting I have been accused of,
Whether I did it consciously or unconsciously.

O Allah, Rab al-Alamin,
Forgive me,
Forgive me for everything.
So for everyone,
Every single Muslim,
Dead or alive,
I do dua that You forgive them for all their sins.

O Allah,
Please please please
Help the suffering Muslims
of Kashmir, Palestine, Chechnya,
Bosnia, Gujarat, Nigeria,
Iraq, Afghanistan and everywhere around the world.
Please O Allah, make the Mujahideen victorious,
And let the beauty of Islam reign!

O Allah, give victory to the Muslims!
O Allah, please let true Islam reign!
O Allah, please increase our knowledge of Your deen and this world.

O Allah,
Please help us all and guide us,
For You are everything to us.

O Allah,
I cannot stress how much I ask for Your forgiveness and Your guidance.

O Allah,
I fear You
I fear You soooo much words cannot describe.
I fear the day when I will meet You,
And I WILL meet You.
When we are one on one,
And I have no one’s help or support.
No one can take the blame for me
Nor I for them.
The only thing I will have
Is a little book given to me by You
That has my deeds.

O Allah,
Please forgive me for my thoughts,
For even though I get sinned for my actions,
I cannot help but feel guilty for my thought
And I ask You to forgive me for them
And to clear my mind of any impurities
Until You become the only thing on my mind.

O Allah,
Please forgive me
If I ever did anything out of gain
For this life and not for Your pleasure.
If I did anything to “show off”
Then please forgive me for that.

O Allah,
I do dua that You grant us all God-fearing spouses
And grant us righteous children.

O Allah,
I do dua that You continue to strengthen this ummah until the Day of Resurrection.

O Allah,
Forgive me for whatever I have not mentioned,
For I am bound to forget
…but You,
through Your greatness…
You never forget.

O Allah,
Please grant all the Muslims Jannah-tul-Firdaus.

O Allah,
I ask that You shed Your mercy
On all the Prophets (peace be upon them)
And on all the Angels (peace be upon them).
Lastly, I do dua
You shed Your mercy
On the Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him),
His family and companions.
I do dua that You grant Muhammad
The highest station in paradise.

Rabinna Aataina
Fiduniya Hasinathow
Wa Fil Akhirati Hasinathow,
Wakina Adhab innar

Ameen

-Slave of Allah-

New Year with a new space !!!

Goodbye 2009 ...Welcome 2010!!!!!!!

Ive decided to create a new blog for 2010...one blog per year...interesting isnt? haha.....

3 more freaking weeks before my final Exams and i havent start anything yet ;(

Ya Allah..give me a lot of strength and concentration so that i can focus on my exams!!!

Anyway...to all my readers..cheers to a New Year and another chance for us to get it right

hugs :)